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phone tags... i have regrets

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( Peter feels strange fishing through Matt's clothes and things, though there's probably no skeletons hidden in the closet Matt hasn't already confessed to him completely unprovoked. of course there's no sheets, not even on the floor, which happens to be where Peter keeps his without his aunt's intervention. he can hear Matt's head hit the pillow and he almost expects that to be it. the guy is tired enough that it could have been, if Matthew Murdock were not so damnably stubborn.

honestly, Peter doesn't know why he's searching for sheets when Matt is already bleeding into the nice ones. he's surprisingly exhausted considering he's only done up a few stitches. a part of Peter wonders if after Matt passes out he can clean him up more without him waking up. the other part isn't sure he would stay awake if he got into the bed Matt seemed determined to coax him into.

is it just him, or is sharing a bed without the motivations of fucking each other's brains out a little more intimate? Matt doesn't seem to think so, so maybe it isn't. if he'd had any intention of refusing, the fact Matt is reaching for him despite the fact he should be out like a light is enough. if he doesn't he is fairly sure Matt will stay awake until he does. he still has his shoes on and he'll feel guilty about it in the morning, but what is worse, dirty converse on Matt's extremely nice bedding, or enough blood to make a generous donation? ) I'm here. ( Matt's hand is still outstretched so Peter takes it in his. just about the only part of Matt he can touch without hurting him. )

If you don't sleep now, I'm going to knock you out. Don't think I won't. ( he's half joking, half serious. for real, Matthew, SLEEP. )

IT'S FIIIIINE :D

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[Sleeping in the same bed is pretty intimate, but Matt can't do those calculations right now. All he knows is that he wants to be comforted. And the only things that comfort him anymore are punching people to a pulp or Peter's touch. Two very different things. Oh, and luxury single malt whiskey, but that would thin up his blood too much and make Peter freak out more. Peter takes his hand and Matt closes his eyes.]

I'm sleeping. I'm sleeping. Stay here.

[Matt doesn't hear anything else Peter says, because he falls asleep. He's linked his fingers with Peter's and he doesn't seem to be letting go anytime soon-- though in about ten minutes, Peter could pry his fingers away.]

puts a bow on this one 🎀

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( yeah, that's a negative on the schmancy whiskey front. Matt will have to make do with some hand holding. Matt isn't the only one that needs comfort, turns out, but Peter knows there's only so much he can get. so he cradles Matt's hand like it's made of glass instead of a weapon that Matt can and does turn against people. he uses it as a pillow to get a direct line to the beat of his heart and uses that as his comfort instead.

it's not fast, it's not slow, it's not scattered or uneven. it's not normal and okay maybe it's weird that Peter knows what Matt's "normal" heartbeat is like. it's not the first time he's paid attention to it, is all. considering Matt uses his senses on Peter all the time, it seems fair enough that Peter can creep on his heartbeat on occasion. it is hard not to fall asleep listening to the reassuring thunder of it under his ear, especially because it has most certainly been a quiet comfort that helps him fall asleep before.

but turns out bone-tired weariness is not enough to put his mind to sleep, when the anxiousness chases to the front of his thoughts. even with the heartbeat, Peter finds himself worrying about whether the injuries will heal. if there's a concussion he doesn't know about that might keep Matt from ever walking up. if there could still be enough open wounds that he'll bleed out, slowly and surely, and Peter will wake up to find him cold and long since gone, and he just slept through it.

turns out that kind of anxiety is enough to keep anyone awake, and Peter instead wakes up to finish what he started. truth be told, it does make him feel a little better to catalogue the injuries and make sure that they're dealt with. by the time he's done (more cuts than he could count, about a dozen bruises, a shiner on his face, the list goes on) Peter is at least fairly confident Matt won't die in his sleep. even if he's certainly asleep — nothing but a few mumbles, even though it can't be comfortable to be splashed with more antiseptic and antibacterial than a hospital floor.

it's only after that Peter lets himself crawl back into the spot he's abandoned, and even then he doesn't fall asleep immediately. he holds onto Matt's hand, watches his restless sleep and lets the worries eat him alive for a little while, before not even they can keep him awake. )